Again, I miss you. I've been thinking of you day and night. Every sms of you cheered me up.
I thought of what happened 2 years ago. And been wondering why didn't you tell me what you wanted to say.
I'm still waiting for your sms. I'm waiting for the day when you have the courage to tell me that you love me.

I am still waiting, till the day our lives end.

I kinda miss you again. My blog seems to be a place for me to type in all my feelings I have for you.
Months had passed, from the day I revealed how I felt for you.
Perharps you had forgotten, but I hope you don't.
I miss you, really.
I have been trying very hard to convince myself that you actually don't have any feelings for me. But I just can't.
The eye contact you gave me, the different attitude you use to face me are killing me.
Can't you just treat me like a normal girl-friend?

I regretted for being attached with another guy.
But people say that I love him more than I love you. Because, if I really love you, I wouldn't have accepted him.
Is this really true? I hope the answer is yes.
Hope you are doing fine, and hope that you will one day find your true love. :)

But one thing for sure, you will always be placed in a place in my heart.
A special friend of mine. <3

Holidays are here, LIKE FINALLY! Erm, its actually exam break lah. But because I only have one paper which is on the 31st August, I might as well announced that i'm already having holidays.

This few months were okayokay. Theres actually many things happened, but not convenient to type it out.

However, I put in alot effort in my studies recently. Erm, maybe is just some improvement in efforts.

Praying hard that my GPA will increase.

What should I do during my holidays? Well, working will be the only option :(

Its not that I dislike working. Its just that its too boring. Especially when there is no customers. HAIS.

But no choice, for the sake of money, I shall endure.

School starts on the 25th October. Meant that I have like 2 MONTHS of holidays.

I WANT TO BE OUT OF SINGAPORE FOR A FEW DAYYYYYYYS!

Malacca? Genting? Hmmmm...

Thinking of doing another tattoo on my thighs. Should I?

Okay its boringggggggg!

Bye sugar!

So long never blog liao! I'm back with my Singlish!

Its super tiring! So many essays and projects to do! Didn't had my beauty sleep! All my pimples are popping up!

Anyway, super looking forward to holidays! 1 more month! Gonna endure for the one more month!

Okay, gonna chiong my project now!

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I'm super determined to study hard this time round!

1) All all lectures and tutorials

2) Participate in every project groups meeting

3) Do all tutorials

I'm back again!

Seriously tired of working. Really tired. But can't help. I have to no matter what. At least earn my mown pocket money.

Other than working, I find the rest of my life is good. No worries, no problems.

I'm bored at home on a Monday afternoon. Decided not to work today. But i'm seriously too bored!

Fat boy went for his project meeting. & i'm lazy to do anything!

Anyway, I want shopping.

I need new clothes and bras.

I want movie and neo-prints with fat boy!

Anyway, went cycling last night with Weiling, Fat boy, Clive, YongChai, Roy, Nicholas, Joseph and Miao.

Fun! but our butts hurt like mad!

Cycled ALOT! VERY LONG! Felt like I lost 10kg! Cycled from East Coast park all the way to Changi airport. Then back.

Phew!

Fat boy stayed over. We slept the moment we touched the bed. Super tired.

Especially me! I had endured long school hours and work!

Finally today no work!

As for this week, i'm only on Thursday and Sunday. Pathetic!

I may be going bugis's outlet next week. Well, I don't mind actually. New environment. Hope that there has more customers, thus, more commission to earn.

Okay, i'm waiting for GSS!

BUY BUY BUY BUY BUY BUY BUY!

Hi people, i'm back after a few days!

Well, school had started! And it was really good. I seems to enjoy school much more.

I really don't mind long lectures. And I started to dislike going work. Its a drag!

The happy thing is, I've just received my pay! & I've put aside $200 to save!

For this month, i'm going to get myself some clothes! Cheap ones! Just some basic tess or tops for me to go school.

I'm also getting 2 pairs of contact lens. So, I guess i'm spending about $100 on all these. Hais!

But nevermind, I will spend less on food which I believe I will. Cause TP's food is cheap!

There is 2 big wishlist I wanna it done by this year.

1) Permanent hair removal for my calves

2) Tattoo on my thighs

These 2 gonna cost my a bomb!

Okay, enough of all these!

If time allows, I will turn back time to 1 year ago.

I miss you, I really do.

I wish the one i'm with, is you.

Do you even know that you're on my mind almost every moment of my life?

Do you even know that I've love you so much.

When I know that nothing can change the fact that we can't be together forever, my heart sank.

I tried to be friends with you. Being as natural as I could infront of you.

But I realised that I couldn't.

Obviously, I know you tried your best too.

I dare not look straight into your eyes. Because i'm afraid that you could see through me.

I didn't want you to know what exactly I feel for you. Because, my love for you even I myself couldn't comprehend.

I really wish i'm yours, but I know that this wish will never be fulfilled.

Say me stupid or childish, but if one day you want me, I will do anything just to be with you.

I love you.

Yours truly,

Noelle

I'm like back blogging?

Work today was good! Finally saw Esther! Like months never work with her le. And we start chatting like nobody business.

Was super pekcek with an auntie who sells nasi lemak.

The story goes like this..

I always buy nasi lemak from a stall near tampines1. & always order setB. & always request for the fried fish to change to fish cake. & always, those uncles will willingly change for me.

BUT today, this auntie is damn guai lan. She refused to change for me and tell me with a super guai lan tone. BUT thank God, 1 of the uncle was there. So I was like 'Uncle, still remember me? Can I change the fried fish to fish cake?' The uncle then said 'CAN CAN! Can change, why cannot?'

The auntie expression was like -.- and I said 'told you can change!'

Super shiok when I say her back! Cause she was super rude to my friends also!

When we wanna go change money, because our shop doesn't have small change, this is how she replies us. 'Never buy things, cannot change!'

Okay, will stop saying about her already.

Like finally received my schedule! Monday to thursday 9.30 to 3.30. Friday 9.30 to 5.30. Saturday 9.30 to 3pm. Wohoo! Short hours rocks!

I have a feeling that my gastric will be back soon. Been feeling so easily bloated and the vomitting feeling is back.

What should I do?

I really cannot forget the days when i'm with gastric infection. It was horrible! I thought i'm gonna die soon. LIKE REALLY.

The feeling is worst than anything else. I couldn't breathe properly, I couldn't even stand straight, left alone walking. I was so weak that I can't even open my eyes.

I HATE THE FEELING!

Please God, please heal me. I want to be a healthy girl. I hate it when I see my tummy is so big even if I eat so little. When my friends can wear pretty clothes, I have to stick to oversized clothes just to hide the tummy cause by my gastric infection.

God, heal me please.

Okay, I really want a steamboat before my gastric infection acts up.

I'm back to update my blog again!

I'm starting work, like finally! After 1 week of rest AT HOME! I'm gonna bored till death le lahhhhhh!

Got only tomorrow's schedule :( 9.30-3.30. 6hours onlyyyyyyyyyy! But nevermind, cause, MORE PAY!

My manager is like this. She always give us last minute schedule. Well, got used to it le!

Wonder where should I go tomorrow after work. Crack my brains again. Argh.

Sometimes, I wish to work long hours. But when i'm give long hours, I always wish to go home early. I'm weird, I know.

But as for this week, I hope that i'll be given more hours, because, this is my last week of holidayssssss! = last week to earn more money.

When school reopens, I guess I will be only working on friday night, saturday and sunday morning. Perharps 1 weekday? Lets see my new timetable.

Alright! What did I done during my weekends?

FRIDAY: Stayed at home for the whole day! Yes, the whole day.

SATURDAY: Service @ suntec!

SUNDAY: Whole day at fat boy's house. Watched Sar Awards. And I really love it! I'll look forward to every year's star awards!

Yeah, I have a boring life. I don't know why. Perharps is because I have nothing to look forward to.

GSS next month, I THINK! Happy to the max! Its time when my auntie's mood is turn on!

Feels like going for some Kbox and Steamboat. Hmm.

Okay, I'm bored now.

Bye!

Its been months since I last update my lonely blog.

These few months is so........ I don't know how to describe.

Firstly, its MY SCHOOL HOLIDAYS!!!!!!

When its examinations period, i'm sad to say that i'm down with gastric infection.

Its really days when I fought hard with the devil. The pain is indescribable.

I visited 4 doctors and went in and out of the hospital 2 times. Poor thing hur?

At last, I got better after visiting the 4th doctor.

Of course, I didn't take my exams! Took supp paper instead.

Well, this time, I studied real hard for my worst 2 papers!

1) STATS 2) BASIC NUTRITION AND FOOD

Seriously, I SUCKED in both. Stats is maths and every of my good friends know that I suck in maths. BNF is science, and my science is far worst than maths.

Got the picture?

Yes, I struggled while studying! But still, I put in my best effort.

In the end, I PASSED BOTH! Both C. Well, not fantastic, but its worth to be happy for!

Especially for my stats! Its so last minute when Kian Hao taught me THROUGH PHONE! REALLY PHONE!

Thank you asshole. Love you so much as a brother!

Clive even said 'Its a miracle that you can even pass when you didn't even practised any questions!'

Of course, most thanks goes to GOD, without his wisdom, I don't think I can even pass. :)

Okay now, I'm super bored at home. REALLY BORED.

I'm a workaholic. Really can't stand the days when I can stay at home and do nothing!

I took a 1 week break from etude house. Supposed to be working at premier dead sea now, but I rejected them.

Feels so weird and uneasy to work with something and people i'm not familarised with.

But at the same time, I sick and tired of working for etude. WITHOUT ANY PAY RISE!

Well, finally my manager decided to give me a pay rise. I was happy, but at the same time, I feel that I deserved it anyway.

Gonna start work next week. And after next week, school reopens.

And I promised myself this thing, that i'm gonna study hard! Really. My GPA really shocked me. And its not what i'm capable for.

I know I can do much better.

Wish me all the best people!

I'm now currently chiong-ing my project in school.

This week will the my last week of year 1 in Poly. Time flies.

This semester sucks! Regretted working so much! Promised myself that i'm gonna work less when school starts. :)

My grandfather just passed away. Physcially, i'm okay. But emotionally not. There will be times when I'll think of him. Regretted of not taking good care and showing concern to him when he is alive.

CNY 2011 and Valentine Day are over. No more exciting moments for me to look forward. :(

Life is always the same. Sleep, eat, urine, poo poo. HAHA!

Thinking of starting my losing weight plan all over again.

God, I miss you. I feel that i'm very far from you. Hope you still remember me. But one thing for sure, I still love you most.

Sian. assignements, tests, essays are all due very soon.

So tough to manage work and studies.

ARGHHHH! I want to faint liao. So afraid that I will fail this semester.

By the way, CNY is coming soon. I was actually excited for it. But not after my grandfather is admitted to the hospital. :(

Pray hard that he will recover soon. And miracle will allow him to be well and let him home before CNY!

Alrights, I'm done! Gonna study for stupid psy now.

8 months had past, ever since the first day I chose to commit myself to a man.

These 8 months is so tough, yet fun. I began to learn how to love, embrace and care for another person. And I finally realised how love can change one's life.

I will be looking forward to the rest of my life, because I have Zt with me.

Love you hubby!

I'm so sick and tired of CG. If this is what they say 'we are brothers and sisters', I doubt that i'm in the correct place.

Life is great anyway! I don't find any differences of not going for cgm or having fellowships. In any case, i'm still close to my daddy god.

Alrights, work is super good for me. I just love working. And don't know why, I just find myself start to like studying. Good sign? HAHA!

Okay, i'm still the same old vain Noelle. With make-ups. And I don't find anything wrong with applying thick make-ups?

Am I right? As long as I'm happy with myself and I don't look like a ghost.

Okay well, i'm done with what I wanna say.

Bye!

I'm like finally back?! lol.

Well, my 17th birthday just past. Well, as usual, never like to have a big huha birthday.

But still, i'm very happy. CAUSE, I finally had my eyebrow pierced! It was painful as what I expect. Seriously not painful at all!

Been really tired recently. Worked alot. And realised that I had neglected my dear studies. :(

Been super more vain recently.. But its okay, girls supposed to look pretty anyway. tehee.

Okay, i'm done! Hope to update real soon again.

I love today's weather! So comfy. Hehe.

But please don't rain .. I want to go ride bicycle laterrrrr!

Watching taiwan drama now and waiting for darling to come over.

School starting! Darling will be busy studying, while I will be juggling with studies and work together.

Well, its okay. Used to it.

Okay, shall end here. Bye.

Finally not working today! Finally a day of not need to wake up early for work. HAHA!

Alrights, school is starting real real soon. But seems like its a normal lifestyle for me. No different.

Service later! Yay! So happy to go for service 2!

And I can't wait for my pay to come! So I can buy all my make-ups! i fell in love with white and blue eyeliner!

I also want liquid eyeliner, and facial mist!

Ohmy. when did I became so vain.

But the good news is, I lost 3kg! after so much hard work. Alrights, shall work alot harder now!

I want to be better, look better and of course, be the girl God wants me to be.

Not to show whoever, but to let myself feel better. :)

Okay, shall go prepare for service soon.

Will update very soon! :)

I will be working everyday for this week, except for Saturday and Sunday.

Work is seriously damn fun. Especially when I get to know so much more about beauty products.

And yeah, because of that, I'm seriously becoming more and more vain. This meant that my money is gonna fly to even more make-ups and beauty products.

And i'm so gonna start to wear back my fake eyelash again!

Well, there goes my moneyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

But no pain, no gain. Hehe.

School is starting next week. So sian. Just dislikes sudying. HAHA!

Okay, shall not take a nap. Going dinner with mum and bro instead.

I'm finally back to onsugar.

I'm now currently working in etude house. A super cute and chio Korea shop.

Life is still good. Especially I love it when I have a good job and I super in love with my darling boy. Teeheexz!

Well, i'm rather anxious of my next sem's timetable. Hope that the timing is good so that i'm able to work. And I seriously want to know which CDS i'm in. Argh.

Okay, i'm done!

Shall go take a nap like now! :D

BYE.

I'm finally posting!

Tuesday(23/03) : Went to watch 'Remember Me' with ZhanTang @ Cathay! I rate it 2.5/5.

Wednesday(24/03) : Accompanied Joshua to Roxy Square to dye his hair. HingCheung were there too. Headed home at evening time. Came out to slack with Roy, YongChai & ZhanTang at night.

Thursday(25/03) : Work from 6-11pm. Supposed ZhanTang coming to Cathay to meet me, ended up me going to cineleisure to meet him, as I finished work early, & he is still watching his movie. Took bus14 back. Slacked with Roy, YongChai, Benson, Dawn & Wei De.

Friday(26/03) : Cellgroup meeting! Went over to blk85 for dinner with the whole cg after that! Slacked with Roy, ZhanTang & YongChai after that.

I'm here to post! Teeheezxz.
Its 5.09am, yet, I still can't get to sleep! & my tummy is growling! Argh.

I shall update on what happened on Monday!
Met up with Wei De & ZhanTang at Bedok inter @ 6.15pm. Headed to Tampines together. Met up with Benson there.
Had dinner at BBQ chicken! Kenny came after our meals.
Headed over to TampinesMall after that. Went over to the arcade.
ToysRus after arcade.
Went to ntuc to buy my conditioner after that.
Well, we had a problem of pinching & smacking each other's butts! lol.
Went over to Tampines1 after that as Kenny wanna buy some light bites. Sat down & slacked. Left at about 10.15pm.
Headed over to my house area to meet YongChai & Roy while Kenny went home.
Had fun slacking again! With the jokes & stuffs.
Headed back home at about 3.20a.m.

Tuesday: Watching 'Remember Me' with ZhanTang at Cathay! :D

Life is so good, so good.

However, I knew that this will not last forever.

Suddenly, I just love work. I don't even know why.

Whatever isit, I just take it as God wanna me to enjoy it!

As days goes by, I'm more & more dependent on God.

Well, this is even true when I thought back & realised that he actually provided my every needs.

I had went through many tribuations, experienced different trials. At the end of the day, I still trusted God for my life.

Perharps this is the thing God wanna all his children to do.

I'm really happy, sincerely having great fun. & I believe that this is what his joy & peace provides.

Slowly, i'm convinced that i'm God chosen. Without him, i'm really nothing.

Living for the everyday & looking forward for his goodness of the next day is what I know that he wants me to do(:

OH! Poly is starting real real soon!

New faces, new lifestyle. Noelle, are you really prepared for it?

However, all I know is that i'm sure gonna enjoy my poly life! With God, fears are all gone! :D

I'm here again to post!

Friday: Met up with Benson, YongChai & ZhanTang at Bedok inter. Took a bus down to Plaza Sing. Our purpose was to catch a movie! Roy, Leonard & WeiLing joined us too! Supposely watching 'Up in the air', but all tickets were sold out, so in the end, we set our mind on 'A diary of a wimpy kid'. Had dinner at foodcourt first, then played arcade! Went in to the threate at 6.50pm, when it started. Well, the movie was not bad(Cute+Funny), I rate it 3/5. Headed to KFC after that. Then took a bus back to Bedok. Slacked with Benson, Roy & YongChai while the rest headed home first. Slacked till 2.30am.

Pictures of myself again!

Thats all! I'll try to update soon again! But no promise. Hehe. 

Picture taken on Thursday, 18/03.

Finally i'm not lazy to post! Because, i'm back home early today! Hmm, 11.15pm?

Monday: Youth Meeting! & its totally impactful!

Tuesday Seriously, after thinking for so long .. I really forgotten where I went & what I did. Forget it. This goes down to my STM.

Wednesday: Work! Was SUPERRRRR boring from 12pm TO 7pm as I have to mend a booth all by myself! But was fun after that! Love working with Wei Da, Janice, Kang Ning, Wei Juan, Shirley& Irish! ZhanTang waited for my at Cathay all the way after my work! *I'm soooo touched**Actually is cause he had my ezlink & all my cash* Slacked at my house area till 1.30a.m.

Thursday: Went to Temask Poly with Benson & Joshua, to hand in the tution grant form. Headed to Bugis after that! Had lunch+Dinner at BillyBombers*used to be Hip Diner* HanTing joined us after that. Headed back to Bedok to meet ZhanTang & WeiLing. Went over to my house area to slack. Till about 11pm!

Anyway, I love today's weather temperature. Just hate the rain.

Alrights, shall be posting tomorrow if any fun events happened. If not, wait patiently for my next post! ^^